Pimping My Modeling

I am a model. It's a hobby, but if you're a decent photographer and have a good idea then I would love to make the time for you. I have been modeling for about 4 years, working with several different photographers. The most impressive being Tom Clark. http://www.tomsbodypix.com/

I am also a figure model, which means I pose nude for artist.

Here's a teaser.

You can check out my pictures on my Facebook, Model Mayhem, or just google my name!

http://www.modelmayhem.com/1815591

https://www.facebook.com/rainey.tadehara

Always Searching

I wish I could tear my feelings out and use them for target practice. I hate always wondering about someone. Always playing the god damn what if game.

What if we work out? What if he's as great as he seems and the most important of all.

WHAT IF I MAKE THE WRONG CHOICE? What if I could have had something magical with them and I missed it because I was with him? What if I throw something magical away because I thought I found someone better and I was wrong?

Love is not logical. I am logical. I hate love.

Top 10 Kisses of my Lifetime

In no particular order:
1. The "Whoa" Kiss -Kieran
2. Kissing in the Car at Trolley Square - Gypsy
3. Threeway Kiss - Melissa, Perry
4. 2 1/2 hrs. - Alex
5. Right Before Deployment - Kieran
6. Kissing John (He had his lip pierced twice. It was fab.)
7. The 2 to 20 - Britanie (I kissed Britanie in a room with only two people in it during a party and when we both looked up there were about 20 people and some of them had their phones out. LOL)
8. Motorcycle Matt
9. ?
10.?

More Than One Lover

Polyamory, as defined by Wikipedia, is the practice, desire, or acceptance of having more than one intimate relationship at a time with the knowledge and consent of everyone involved.

I have never wanted to fall in love. I knew it was a terrible thing from when I was very little. I never wanted to fall in love because I knew that once I started I wouldn't be able to stop. I see potential in everyones eyes and in everyones arms and that is a terrible gift.

I'm not a very jealous person, but I am very possessive. I like to have things and keep them close to me, but I don't mind sharing. I get very attached to people and have a lot of trouble letting go. It makes monogamy very difficult for me. I don't do well with breaking peoples hearts.

Getting The Party Started

I have several different networking accounts. Twitter, Facebook, ModelMayhem, I even have a Myspace account.

I try not to be self centered or spam any of the pages but sometimes I just can't help it. So I've decided to create this account. So I can talk all about me.

Everything I want to say about me and my life the best part is that it's out there for someone to read. Someone to take part of my life.

I want to be out there. I want to be heard, but at the same time that very idea terrifies me.

So I'm secretly hoping that all of you and none of you will read this. By the way, I'm a Gemini. That could explain a lot.

- Crowning Royal